Sunday, August 15, 2010

A God of Second Chances

It wasn't long (perhaps only hours) after that extremely high blood sugar reading before my body was mourning the loss of my old, SAD (Standard American Diet) food.  The thoughts of withdrawing from caffeine, sugar and flour (refined carbohydrates), fried foods, fast foods, etc... were frightening to say the least.  I knew that I was harming myself by eating these foods and yet I would always tell myself that "I'll do better tomorrow".  Once you start down that dark path of poor eating it's hard to get back onto the right one.  Those foods are so highly addictive.

I remember praying for forgiveness and asking the Lord to give me a second chance while envisioning a miracle healing that would show readings on my meter to be below 100.  The Lord ignored my promises to do better and oaths of righteous eating.  :-)  It was so hard to envision life without that garbage (though for many years we've done without all of that food that had been working to kill me).  How in the world would I make it without at least a baked potato or bread for sandwiches?  I prayed and pleaded "Please Lord give me a second chance".  Then suddenly I realized He HAD given me a second chance.  Not the one that I was asking for, of course.  But I was alive, breathing and yes, hungry.  My second chance was to start over with foods that will heal my body.  God, in His infinite wisdom, had taken away the ability to abuse my body with bad foods--for which I am now so thankful.

I still have a very long way to go but I believe that all of this is ultimately for my good (Romans 8:28) and that I am now capable of following the path that the Lord will lead our family down.  I am finally free of the hold that those sugary, fatty and highly processed foods had over me.  I'm starting to feel like I can think again and my brain is not so fuzzy.

My next big hurdle to jump will be weaning my children off of this stuff.  It will be harder than weaning myself since there won't be the immediate life or death fear factor behind the effort.  It makes me sad to know how well we used to eat compared to how far we've fallen.  But with God's help we will accomplish the task since I know it is the right thing for us to do.

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